Those People

Those people that let their child harass a dog until the dog feels it has no choice but to use its mouth to put distance between it and the child, those people would say something like, “but the dog never growled before” or “the bite came out of nowhere”.

No it didn’t. That dog gave plenty of warnings but the people weren’t listening. Well I am listening to my dogs. But apparently my husband would end up as one of those people. He told me tonight that he was more annoyed listening to me protect my dog from the overly hyper and aggressive kid than the kid.

I don’t know what to do with that but be angry. Angry that he thinks “Vader will just walk away” forever and ever. When Vader only has so much room to move around in. When the kid is constantly following V around as V keeps walking away over and over again until I tell the kid to leave him alone. DH doesn’t see. He doesn’t get it. He would be one of those people to be surprised when V is finally cornered with no one to protect him, so he protects himself. Who will suffer the most in that scenario?

Struggles Are Real

I feel like crap. My right foot (the one I broke in 2016) has been causing me lots of pain the last few months. My knees have been hurting quite a bit and the other day at work on a walk, the right knee started clicking!

But I want to practice agility. And I want to move equipment around! But I hurt, so I don’t want to actually do that.

The struggle is hard. My brain wants to do things but my body says rest. If I do the things, then I hurt.

Oh and the house needs cleaned. At least upstairs. Which means more pain from kneeling to scrub the tub and bending to scrub the sinks. So how do I manage the balance of things that I want to do versus what I need to do and how much pain they will cause me?

Today I am resting. Kind of. I slept till 11 (called in sick) and will do the house stuff in spurts today. I plan to do some agility tonight when it is cooler.

Stuff and stuff

So been kinda in a slump again. I have things I want to do and get done but feel like I can’t ever get the time or energy.

Or my body tells me to take it easy.

My foot has been bothering me this week. Today was pretty good but yesterday it really hurt. Just sitting at my desk at work and it would ache or throb. When walking sometimes a shooting pain in the side of my foot. Then went I got home my foot felt numb! Like it had been asleep and was waking up. I go to a foot doc on Monday so we shall see what they say.

Just need a training plan or something. Some kind of thing to get me out of my head and back into life.

Making Choices

I am trying to make different choices this year.

First I started with a lot less drinking and snacking. I am down 10 pounds and seem to be stabilizing there which is ok by me!

Next is to do more fun things with the dogs and less long trial days. This one is harder.

I start looking at the trials coming up and want to enter both days. Or enter two trials in a row. Because despite not enjoying the early mornings that much, I do enjoy the thrill of stepping to the line to tackle a new course. The accumulation of titles and seeing what kinds of times we can lay down. I don’t really enjoy having to cheerlead Twitch around the course though.

So I am trying to choose other activities for the summer. I am committing to two trials in July and August. Both USDAA and both outside. Otherwise I want to go camping and hiking. I want to go to new trails and get up early-ish on a weekend morning and go some place new at least twice in July and August.

May is already full though we could plan a hike on one weekend.

June I am currently planning one trial and one conformation show.

See? Not enough weekends for all the fun things!