Stuff and stuff

So been kinda in a slump again. I have things I want to do and get done but feel like I can’t ever get the time or energy.

Or my body tells me to take it easy.

My foot has been bothering me this week. Today was pretty good but yesterday it really hurt. Just sitting at my desk at work and it would ache or throb. When walking sometimes a shooting pain in the side of my foot. Then went I got home my foot felt numb! Like it had been asleep and was waking up. I go to a foot doc on Monday so we shall see what they say.

Just need a training plan or something. Some kind of thing to get me out of my head and back into life.

Conformation

Vader and I are going to enter a conformation show in March. Our first one.

We have attended 3 handling classes and had a friend come over once to practice in the barn. Vader is doing well in classes but he finds them pretty boring. 🙂 Except for the treats. He does like the treats.

Kris asked me what my goals are in this conformation thing. I don’t know that I have any other than to not be an idiot in the ring. 🙂 I do want to see what a judge thinks of him stacked up against other dogs. That may be harder than I expect just because there are not many Icies around!

Other than that, just more ring experience and exposure. Gail got to see him tonight and she thinks he looks great. I am hopeful a judge will also think so. I am planning to attend the next few weeks of handling classes to get more practice in before the end of March. It will be here before I know it!

Personal Issues

I have a weakness.

I get jealous.

Frequently.

I am not proud of this and it bothers me. If you know how to stop being jealous, I am all ears.

My jealousy is usually relating to something someone else has that I don’t.

Thicker hair.

Faster dog.

Etc.

How to figure out how to be happy with what I have?

I dye my hair. But I still wish it was thicker.

I came to terms with who I was back in 2000 or so and was comfortable with who I was and was confident on my own. I wish to achieve that feeling in other things.

But how?

Goals and How Not to Achieve Them

Goal: eat healthier, smaller portions and stop snacking.

I did well for a couple weeks. Then I slipped and kept slipping. I do ok at work through the week but the weekends are hard and the evenings too. I am so hungry when I get home! We are slowly getting rid of snack items so that is good at least.

I have avoided alcohol since New Years till today. I had a little bit of Frangelico and Baileys in my coffee. Didn’t get a buzz and all it did was flavor the coffee. Still not going to do more than that but it was a considered choice to go against what I am trying to do.

And interestingly enough, now I have phlegm again. I’ve been battling sinus issues for a while now and the last two days were pretty good. Sudafed, Mucinex and saline nose drops were working. Now the phlegm across the throat is back. Am I allergic to alcohol? Was it the Reeses Pieces or Milk Duds? So chocolate? But I haven’t had chocolate since the chocolate pudding pie…. hmmm… I may have to test this theory.